Heavy-Hearted @ Christmas

Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water. Christopher Morley As I faced Christmas, I felt heavy-hearted. We had been overseeing my older brothers’ care ever since he faced major health issues, and now he had passed away. Returning home from vacation, our RV caught on fire on the freeway. Between the fire damage and smoke residue, it was totaled. One of our children faced a period of depression and struggled to work through it. And there was a relationship at work that had gone awry, and I wasn’t sure if it could be repaired. It was not the year I anticipated, nor hoped for. Feelings of loss and sadness enveloped me. I felt heavy-hearted and overwhelmed by loss, nightmares and distress. Yet, all around me was a world filled with Christmas decorations, cheery music, and bright lights. I felt unable to process my feelings and find God in my pain. Whether it’s broken relationships, illness or l...